I feel alone in a world with so many friends.
Falling fast behind on all the new trends.
Like a worn out work horse. being laid to rest.
My heart was icy cold. behind this warmed chest.
I often wonder how I survived so long.
Pretending to be happy when all was wrong.
I was supposed to die three long years ago.
But I need final closure and wanted you to know.
I was never sad or mad because of you.
You turned things red when they were a saddened blue.
I disappeared like shadow in the night.
I fought through the hate one more time to the light
I wanted you to know just how much you meant.
Even when things unraveled and my mind was bent.
To you who made me feel at ease.
But now I must say goodbye to ride of this disease.
Its not your fault you were always there for me.
Take these words as a gift my final poetry.
Live long, happy and well Don't let them get in the way
On the other side we will meet again some gloomy day