I am a fragment of a broken home, parents that were never meant for one another but tried their best to love as if they were. They tried to hold it together for us kids but life could never be what we wanted it to be.
I am a fragment of my demons, the voice in my head that tells me over and over again, "you're not enough." There are some days where that voice feels greater than my own and I almost want to give in.
I am a fragment of failed relationships. You told me I was "too much." It felt like daggers in my chest and suddenly I couldn't breathe. Since then, I have always felt I've needed to hold myself back and not drown in love.
I am a fragment of the hell I've been through. It wasn't easy to get to where I am today. My journey was a little ragged, not a straight shot... but I'm still standing tall and going through this thing we call life.
I'm a fragment of the songs I've played over and over again. Some to block out the pain, the tears. Others to reach a state of nostalgia, in an attempt to go back to moments I wished to relive.
I am a fragment of those I surround myself with. The constant encouragement, the kind words, the shoulders to lean on, the ability to understand why I'm like this. Where would I be without it?
I am a fragment of the books I've read. The lines I underlined to come back to again, the characters I saw a piece of myself in, the events I read about that hit home a little too hard.
I am a fragment of my flaws, my mistakes, my imperfections. They've eaten me alive for most of my life but I am beginning to come to terms with them. I am seeing the beauty I once refused to see within them.
I am a fragment of my emotions. They were always valid and real despite those who tried to convince me otherwise. The smiles and laughs were just as significant as the screams and tears. I tell myself, "you were never crazy... you were just figuring yourself out."
I am a fragment of love. Those that I loved, those that never loved me. The times that love evoked happiness, the times that love caused me pain. It's all the same when you think about it. It was all for, love.
I am a fragment of the woman I was and the woman I am. I didn't always love myself like this but god, I'm glad I now do... because this is something that can never be taken away from me.
"I am a fragment composed of other fragments."-Rebecca Lindenberg