Feb 2017
you'll be fine.*
that's all they can say.
but they don't know how scary it is.
how scary the lights in club can make you dizzy.
how scary they might think you are just going crazy?
how the chocolates that used to make you happy,
causes the attacks that isn't healthy.
how scary the people you used to see every day,
suddenly turns to unfamiliar faces each time you wake up.
it is not easy to be sick like me.
when all you have is memory...
but also that's everything you'll have to lose.
that's all they can say.
but they don't know how scary it is.
how scary the lights in club can make you dizzy.
how scary they might think you are just going crazy?
how the chocolates that used to make you happy,
causes the attacks that isn't healthy.
how scary the people you used to see every day,
suddenly turns to unfamiliar faces each time you wake up.
it is not easy to be sick like me.
when all you have is memory...
but also that's everything you'll have to lose.
I can sometimes feel these things and its kinda making me crazy lately. I don't know but I am scared. I am having attacks again that I don't want anyone to notice because I'm scared they will just pity me. or worse. they'll leave because its just a lot to take in. I am scared that lately, even the my favorite faces turns to strangers. Everything that I always cherish will still be there, but I wouldn't know anymore how much they mean to me.
