you are why i got an education why i tried so hard to make beautiful things with my hands why i got dressed up why i learned to sing and dance
why i never stopped trying to make a living why i always went to the gym and worked out to be diamond hard why i was polite or inconsolable why i ran seven miles a day why i tried to be charming why i could never stop playing with myself why i got through james joyce why i learned conversational hypnosis neuro linguistics magick and witch craft
to invoke a spell that would compel YOU to dance the wiggle wiggle naked from hot rhythms and slow melodic sways as i prayed burning blood red candles during the darkest moon for adorations with endless masturbations to your beautiful *** and feet for tender red lipped mercies kisses kisses kisses
because you are beauty piqued from your golden angelic head soft silken hair to your sweet pink arched feet and twinkling painted toes magnetized to yank my eyes and be your **** boy *** toy my goddess glitter **** queen of heaven all paradise any man needs
BUT sometimes i couldn't have YOU
and it velvet crushed me taught me hopelessness broke my will gave me fear made me cry and shiver inside tore my heart to smithereens twisted my in-nerds like jagged metal melting me as i spiraled down into madness all burning veins of fire until inferiority dragged deep suffocating me shuddery like winters midnight freeze and howling winds through hollow desolations marrow-less bones