This day, as winter dies - cold, and heartless, and exposed - a December which lingers and feels no shame in subduing me. It was in January that I was bad; slipping back to ghostly fingers spectres in the eyes of him, me, you - others around us that let their busy laughter sit on the roads like mist. The lonely chattering of teeth under scarves, hot conversations wet with breath dew Quick thoughts. Openly sad. Feelings persist. A layer of sleep coated my fingers, my hair. My cold feet. And beneath my gloved hands danced anothers' thoughts I struggled to know. Slipping quietly into a slower body; sleeping under a layer of snow. Soon, I promise, I will get better again. As winter dies.
In the winter I get cold and reluctant. And I wake up easily in the night.