two years ago my body was anything but. i built bridges into my heart and burnt them down just so all the memories couldn’t pass
this is an apology for all the good things i left stranded, for the massacre inside me, for the worst parts that survived the war
i never intended to grow outward instead of up – just wanted to be a part of the needed, of the appreciated and loved
i stopped playing the piano when i was nine years old because i hated the emptiness that filled the air in between each note
one night my dad slammed the door so hard my mother shook for days, i made her coffee in the mornings because she couldn't bear to sleep in a half empty bed
those were the first nights i spent writing rather than sleeping. this an acknowledgement for the words that never made their way onto paper
to all the bridged dreams and deserted soldiers - i am coming back for you, all of you, and i will tell your story