I get so happy I forget to keep my gaurd up..
And I let my mouth pour
 
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of me that no one cares to hear
and when they land on deaf ears its like throwing away the only love I have left for myself and even others.. it feels like they are taking from this empty pit where my heart use to sit.
I should know these people aren't worth my dime but
I just want someone I can spend my time with
And
Not have to be afraid to forget as Im
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out 
 but  even   without  these  same 
 feelings  met,
Ill  keep  hoping  they   
will  not  add  to  my    regret

Soon enough though
Ill be back to looking,
Searching for someone I can connect with so much it feels like fate
and not just another pointless date.
Someone who cares to listen and to understand that Ill only be as willing as they are
to find this thing called "love" that we hope is still real and hasnt been lost this past year.
I hope that they believe long enough just to stay and see what we can achieve.


But I know Im asking for too much..
Because
if there's 
 hope
why is it that all I can think of is
a chair.
and  
some rope