12:42 am and I lay awake-
My anxiety keeps me up
From time to time.
It used to wake me every night;
Rob me of my sleep
And steal my dreams away.
So I don't much mind now
From time to time
Being kept up at night.

My heart feels strange
Though it works just fine,
But I feel a dull sensation
As if it were in my lungs.
My breathing is hollow,
My chest tight,
And my mind awake.
I wish I knew the purpose
To these restless nights.

It's 12:49 now,
I dozed for a moment
Now tired I close my eyes,
But my heart craving
To be heard
Keeps me awake.
I don't know what it wants,
I feel it thumping in my chest-
Demanding to be heard.

Memories and other things
Bombard my mind,
Swishing around my skull.
I'm trying to listen
But the beat has dulled
Though my thoughts race.
And now I'm writing
In twisted circles.
I hate when this happens.

Now it is 12:57 am
I am tired and awake,
Feeling empty and alone
Yet full at the same time.
Have I felt this all along,
Just now noticing?
This isn't a new sensation,
Just the first time I've listened.

My heart isn't trying
To tell me anything, no.
It's simply crying out
From a lack of nourishment,
I almost think I miss you-
But it's simply everything else I miss.
Since misery loves company
And I lay here alone,
My heart woke herself
For company at 1:08am