I looked in the mirror and hesitated
I got nervous from being watched so i procrastinated
Then I got closer to my viewer
Seen the emptiness staring at me
And asked God for a reason not to perform this show

I received 2 messages ,1 from lust
The other from foolishness
Neither were from her
So I kept on my debate
Questioning sanity and life
I lit candles to help me see where to go

I hesitated again and heard the voice
"You've done this plenty times before
Look at you,You've got scars galore
WHAT THE HELL YOU WAITING FOR?"
I don't know but something changed

"I'll do this myself!" SLICE! SLICE!
Blood flowed from my arm to my wrist
A perfect "X" drawn into it
But instead of pain I felt strange

I cried because I felt nothing therefore
Couldn't be alive, That meant I had died
Or went insane

So I laid, sobbing on the floor, Cause it's
Easier to clean blood stains from here

Then she called so I wiped my tears