There's all these quotes about how who you love is the person you think of when a certain song plays, or at 4 am when you can't sleep-
or the first person you want to tell good news to
& in a lot of ways I suppose you are that person for me.
but I've come to realize that the worlds sugar-coated version of love is complete *******
it's degrading
it does injustice to the things I would do for you.
I have held onto you until my knuckles bled and then I have tightened my grip.
I have never told you that it is too late
because I could wait a lifetime and still fall at my feet because you would finally choose me.
I think of you every second
I miss you when I breathe- when you are laying beside me.
See, the world's idea of love is pretty.
It doesn't include when you use me up and run me dry and I keep giving.
When I ask you about your day but your clothes are off before I have the chance to tell you about mine.
When you only tell me how much you care when I am laying with my body in front of you
willing to break every promise I have made to myself.
When everyone around me sees that you are destroying me & I feel used
But I would still do anything in the world if you asked me to.
How I am so tired of the way that this feels
but never enough to lose you completely.
But if I never talked to you again I don't think you'd feel any different
And still- I see this beautiful person in you
I see everything I know you could be even though you never would prove it
I look in your eyes and I still want to spend the rest of my life with your hand in mine
You will always be enough for me