I'm exhausted. I'm physically and emotionally drained. I find myself looking to nowhere, thinking of nothing, empty and I still don't know where all these tears are coming from. I'm not mad, I don't feel rage, I don't feel anything, nothing but this sharp pain in my chest that comes and goes, and the sudden knot in my throat as the smallest thing reminds me of you. But no, I'm not mad at you. Stop asking me that.