I've given myself so many chances
How many times can I do this?
I tell you "I'm sorry" and you believe me
but why wouldn't you?
I'm a liar and
I'm good at it

I promise the girl you know is not me
I am deep and I am ****** up so
forgive me for hiding the spiders in my veins
and the ice behind my eyes
I want you to know and
I want things to be okay but
they never have been

I can't be greedy anymore
so I've given up
I don't think you'll ever know me
which fractures the already fatal cracks
breaking my heart