I remember
you & I, everything
beautiful house
children playing,
dog in the yard

You came home
hurried that day
not unusual lately,
I knew what was
happening,
you didn't have to tell me
a single receipt for jewelry,
I didn't receive
a sudden need
...for a portable phone

I fell to my knees
Fervently asking of why
Imploring God,
...begging for a sign

I went to sleep
and in a dream,
all unfolding
saw the whole thing
from above
the truck,
&... details

Never... even.... saw,
that train coming
said ...
...you'd NEVER leave

Then, she...
had the nerve
the audacity
to come to that party,
eat MY food,
drink MY wine
then...
having her "fortune" told,
...by me?

Well...
I knew then,
what I know now,
you never really loved her
you thought the grass
would be so much greener?
....It wasn't

We made New Year
wishing bags,
the kids & I
brown paper ones,
like my heart
filled with dreams
...of a bright New Year

Burst before we had a chance
carried off
in suitcase & goodbye
many tears,  we
yet to cry
tenderly asking,
again of why..

As the proverbial rug
from under my feet
was pulled out,
falling apart
everything I believe
to be the value of my life
gone in a split second
fracturing time
shattered & broken
left in a void
from words left unspoken

You said I'd regret this
as you walked away
I said "No"

"We both will"...

Cherie Nolan © 2016