no no
stop wasting your own time
but im so good at it!
im in love with a love thats not real
in love with feeling like a big ******* deal

its always me for me or
me versus me
if none of me wins
then whos to blame

if all me's in this
then why does me
feel so worthless

is it apathy if i
feel apathetic?
is all i am just
a walking contradiction?

i cant justify the sound of my own footsteps
but i can justify hers
or some random strangers

if it takes 21 days for a habit to stick
how the hell do i make happy a habit
nothing feels like a feeling to me


if nothing is a feeling and isnt
then what does it feel like?