You are the only friend to me
But I always seem to hurt you
The wrong thing is simply stated
Just never seem to learn
Can't act properly
If I push you away
I can let go

Hate to see pain in your eyes
But I subconsciously pretend not to see
Because I'm afraid of the truth
I'm a coward behind this mask

Deep within me
Is a dark desire
To turn to the black
And walk away

It feels like I don't belong
I want to let go
A foolish vision,
for the so-called future.

Will it keep in tack?
Or just utterly fall apart?
What will it take-
to keep this together?!

These fake hopes
Should never come to mind
They should have never evolved.

I knew all along,
it would not last
Yet, I idiotically held on
I want to feel something too

Sorry just won't cut it this time
But I will state it to you again
Because I mean it.

With all my withered being
You are my only friend
And I thank you,
but you can't save me