I'm on the porch
Watching the rain
Dance on the sidewalks
Wishing I could get soaked
And saturated in love expressed by heaven's tears
She's tired of letting the sun outrule her
She's tired of pretending to be okay
And I get it
Because I'm at that moment too
It's about time to head home
Maybe the sky is sobbing because I can't hear you yell my name
I can't hear you telling me that it's getting late
As if I'm going to be exposed to some deadly disease
As if nature was bad for me
As if nature wasn't kind
But then, again, I wish your voice had been louder
I never got to hear it really
I wish the clouds weren't throwing tantrums
Demanding to be heard
Begging to be wanted
I silently almost pleaded with the skies to stop
I wanted to hear your melancholic call
I wanted to hear you say my name again and again
I wanted to be wanted just like the atmosphere wanted to let it all out
But most of all, I wanted you to have run after me as I walked away
Pretending I didn't notice you beckoning me
You almost broke
That was the closest I had seen your walls be shattered
You didn't notice me looking at you but I saw it in your eyes
We were all crying
Not only could I tell by your heaving figure in the corner of my eye
Not only could we tell by the banks of water pitter-pattering
But I started crying after I turned the corner
And that's because you didn't chase me
You didn't follow me
I knew it before I started heading in the opposite direction
Because you knew I'd be gone for awhile
But I'd always come back
I always had hoped you'd open up to me
If I disappeared
It might have started an argument
At least I would know if you cared
It'd be after midnight
When I'd start to walk back home
Long before the rain stopped
And you'd be there
Waiting for me
As if I had never left
As if I deserved nothing
Nothing new
But silence
And a cold shoulder