She never really thought she would do it. She never really thought she would be sitting here with a bottle of antifreeze in one hand and sleeping pills in the other. Shaking Debating Panicking She got to this point Destroying herself Suffering in silence Hiding her mind Hiding the cuts on her arms She feels so selfish but she can't care She has always destroyed herself But now shes destroying others too She hates herself Anxiety Note Death Tells people Don't worry worry don't don't worry okay don't I'm fine fine fine okay I'm good If this doesn't work Life Disappoint Hell **** But if it does Done Disappear Alone Empty She doesn't know what is going to happen She has now been sitting here for 2 hours On this mountain All alone Phone off Her mind is killing her Chug Gulp Water It's done Now she just has to wait 3 hours Anxiety attack attack anxiety who will find me it'sΒ going to hurt Acute kidney failure How she's dying. She is crying Crying Vibrating Questioning Turns on phone Phone on Call someone Someone anyone anyone She wants to die But her family will hate her Her family will be heartbroken 10 texts 4 missed calls Wait crying bawling Her asking Why can't I just disappear? Why can't I slip away with no one knowing? Why do I exist? Why do I hurt everyone? I wasn't thinking think I was freaking freak Call Someone Now No No No No. She whispers to herself "I just can't do it anymore" Wipes away a tear Reclines her seat in her car And falls Asleep.