I can't speak
I am too full of fear:
Like bubbles of soap,
It has filled my mouth.

I can't speak
It's running in my veins:
This speedy ******
element I know nothing about.

I now know nothing

I can't speak
  Because if I do
  I'll be doomed to find
  Nonsensical, unconnected words spilling out
  Cursing me
  Cursing everything
  That led me to become this.

          I am an apology
          Of everything that went wrong
          That I can't seem to heal
          About which, I can't seem to talk