I used to be so hesitant about expressing the extent of my feelings towards people. There have been too many instances where I value and appreciate and love someone much more than they ever would reciprocate, and to them I would seem overwhelming, reckless, and desperate with the way I felt. I’ve learned it’s too risky to pretend not to care. What comes next is too uncertain, too capricious. In the next 24 hours, I could get hit by a bus, move to another country, I could disappear. I am young and we are fragile and mundane and we never know when the bus is coming. We don’t know who won’t be here tomorrow or in two weeks or in two years from now. All we know is the unadulterated here and now of our infinitesimal existence on this planet. I love being straightforward and honest, I love telling people how much they mean to me, I say things like “you are one of my favorite human beings to ever walk this earth of ours” and “you are a strong, resilient, beautiful sunflower.” I love hands in hands and heads in laps and kisses and hugs and cuddles and caresses. I love saying "I love you and I appreciate you." I need you to know now, in this moment that I care for you to the ends of the earth, and I cannot believe that I have the privilege of knowing you and your story and simply having someone like you in my life.
I love being unapologetically Harsh.
If I've sent this to you personally, this is for you.