it's like
no matter how well I know
or how many times I experience it
or how many times I'm back stabbed
I still want to see the good in people.

and I still expect there to be good in people
and when there isn't
I'm disappointed
and I'm let down
and I'm sad
and even more than that- I'm angry

I'm angry at them
and I'm angry at me.

how many times am I gonna go through this before I learn
before I find good friends
or people who really care about me

I need to get my act together
to find people who have theirs together.