Have you lost your mind?
You're whispering her name and your memories of her in my ear,
You don't see my tears
Have you gone blind to my emotions?
I love you
But your thoughts of her are my biggest fears.
Don't you care?
You're telling me how much it hurts YOU.
Am I really here?
Am I really hearing this right now?
Is this really happening?
I don't know.
I don't know who you are.
This pain I'm feeling, doesn't make sense.
I don't want to think about it.
It makes me sick.
My heart is jealous beyond belief.
But it shouldn't be.
You're mine.
Aren't you?
So, why, in the hell are you telling me about her?
Do you still want me?
I've debated for so long I've forgotten when I started.
I shouldn't feel this way.
If you really want me, I shouldn't feel this way.
I should know that you want me.
I shouldn't have to fight for my place in your mind when you've already supposed to have given it to me.
This hurts.
Don't you see?
I'm scared.
I'm scared that no matter what I do,
It's never going to be good enough for you.
Don't you love me?
Show me.
You tell me not to say such things like that.
"No, you don't love me."
"You're not sorry."
What do you want me to do?
Do you want me to lie?
Because those things are how I feel.
I often state my mind and pass it off as a joke because I feel bad that I've hurt you.
But I just as often get upset because I feel you don't feel bad for hurting me.
And that hurts too.
Don't I mean something to you?
Then why don't you at least try to avoid hurting me?
I love you,
But I'm scared to know if it's the right choice...
You're talking to me, completely disregarding what you just said,
And I cant find my voice,
To tell you just how much I'm past the point of no return.
Yet, somehow I find room to be pushed a little bit more.
What's wrong with me?
What's wrong with you?
What's wrong with us?
I don't know anymore.