When does it stop being
My fault?
When I'm falling behind
Failing tests
Struggling to breathe at night
Staring down a mountain of work
Calling in sick because the whole thing
Drove me to a mental breakdown
When does it stop being
My fault?
When I'm staring out my window
And the sun is shining but
I can't bring myself to smile
And it's hard to bring myself
To get out of bed in the morning
Because my shoulders are too heavy
And my chest is so tight
When does it stop being
My fault?
Drawing flowers on my arm
Because if I don't keep my hand
Busy with a marker
It'll start getting busy
With something much sharper
As I carve your words into me
Hiding every tear and every fear
With a broken smile
It will never stop being
My fault.