screaming into a room filled with people, and yet i still feel silent. ripping at my skin begging for beauty to appear, and yet I have not been granted my wish. clawing at my eyes to finally see what gifts life has offered me, and yet I still feel alone. why is it so hard to forgive, to accept, to love yourself? has my brain become so damaged by society that a switch turning off causing a disease to spread like wildfire through my cells? I beg myself to be normal, try to accept that I'm different. but different isn't normal and normal isn't me. I have to accept it and move on, be who I am meant to be.