You used to tell me that I spoke beautifully but maybe it was just the words that I wrote down at 4am because those 4am nights were seemingly becoming a thing and I needed time to process you and do all I could to put you on paper so I said that you fit me nicely. But since then I haven't heard from you much and it seems that you've taken my beautiful words and turned them into the ground and planted yourself a future and you've given yourself hope that maybe you'll hold something beautiful someday. But rainy days pass and you've hidden your sun away and I'm starting to think that I might not be a part of your beautiful future so I won't suffocate you with the words you've stolen from my tongue cause I can still taste them on my lips inches from where yours used to be when you told me you'd stay forever.