How am I supposed to feel, when the woman who has been strong for me my entire life, has tears flowing down her cheeks? How am I supposed to feel, when my friends who live easy going lives, tell me they know what I'm going through? How am I supposed to feel, when my mind is in denial, even though the proof is in her slur? How am I supposed to feel, when I cannot allow myself to cry, because I have to act the role of parent? Tell me, how am I supposed to feel, when my father tells me not to tell, as if keeping it a secret will keep me sane? How am I supposed to keep myself together, when the world continues to fall apart, and repair itself, over and over and over again. How am I supposed to feel when the one i love the most cannot love themselves? Let me tell you, I am falling apart. And this time, I don't want to get back up.
Addiction is a disease that destroys everyone & everything it touches.