It gets difficult late at night when you can't decide exactly who you want to hold in your arms.
It gets difficult when although you know nothing would change, and it's not wrong, you can't quite accept yourself, that maybe you like girls as much as you like boys.
It gets difficult when you question everything about yourself, when you just wish you had one word for how you feel and who you are and why your mind does that weird little thing where you never seem to stop crying.
It gets frustrating when you couldn't stop staring at those girls up on stage, but when it comes to cuddling one or kissing one or loving one you want to so badly but you're scared.
You're not scared of them or anyone else- you're scared of yourself, like you don't want to admit it when you've felt differently for so long and everything is now beginning to click.
Everything seems new again, you know what it's like to love a boy, and you could do that again, and you probably will. But you've never loved a girl, not truly, anyway but you know you can and you want to because that'd be nice.
But everything feels new again, you're shy with girls the way you no longer are with boys, you're used to boys at this point, right now few give you those same butterflies even though you still like them just as much, if not more.
But girls? It's scary and new and downright nerve wracking and just so difficult and confusing, though you know you could love a girl like you could love anyone.