Time after time,
It happened again

I am drowning in my tears and don’t remember how to swim
No strength to keep my head up and breathe
Only suffocation by the darkness and the devastating rain
No way of living, no way of trying

Time after time,
I cannot see a thing

It rains so hard, it blocks my sight
Darkness in my brain
I feel nothing but misery
Hopelessness in the worst kind of way

Time after time,
It happened once more

Don’t know how to stay
Though I cannot say goodbye
Too exhausted to find the right words and scribble them down on the piece of paper beside me
I wish I could

Time after time,
I don’t know how to say

It happens all the time
Tell me how to fight the dark when I’m too sad to even lift my fingertip  
I want to stay, I want to fight
But I’m tired of staying and I can no longer fight