On Sunday mornings, my father likes to leave for church before he can see me just getting home. Cigarettes in the back pocket of yesterday's jeans and another strangers' fingerprints littered across my body. Do you pray for my soul, father? While you're on your knees at the pew, do you think about the tears in the knees of my jeans? Do you ask God why he has burdened you with a daughter like me? The blank pages of the bible you clutch will not save you and my Holy Water cocktail will not save me.