I've got time on my mind,
I've got drugs on my mind.
I'm doing lines in my mind,
hoping I don't die in my mind.
I try not to mind,
but it's killing me inside.
I've lost love many times -
I've never found the true kind.
I stand alone in the light,
all I have is time on my side.
My soul is darker
than the night,
but I don't navigate
my life blind.
She says she loves
me more than life,
but no words can
remove this knife;
it's stuck in my back,
reminding me to always
think twice.
I have trust issues.

What draws her attention
is when I don't give
her attention
and the truth is
I love her,
but it's something
that I'd rather not mention.
She's fishing for answers,
I'm only giving her questions.
I always fall for the girls
with the most class,
but somehow I never
learn my lesson.
I'm starving for love
and I bite too hard
when I taste it.
I'm trying to keep
my heart steady
so that the beat
doesn't get wasted.
I hope when she reads this
she understands
the look on my face and
why when she started
running I never
went chasing.
I gave up.

These trust issues
have got me so confused.
It doesn't matter whether
I love or hate,
somehow I always lose.
I'm trying to make
it to the top,
so I can have a better view.
But I'm stuck at the bottom
and it isn't something new.
I don't need someone
to pick me up or
come to my rescue.
I realize that it's
something that only I can do.
But everytime I look
at my shadow I
wish it was you.
You used to tell me
I can do anything that I plan.
Where did it all change?
It always falls through
and hurts me so bad.
And I know that it's the
sight of me you can't stand,
but I just wanted you to know
that I'm your number one fan.
*I wrote this for you.