There's a perpetual silence around myself but I can't help hearing the ghosts of my voice inside my head I wonder if I am going insane or if this is just how life works once you're ready to admit to yourself that you'll never be anything else but this no more changing no more failed attempts to become someone better there's no escape and still I try as much as everyone else even though all of us know that the silence screams louder when we keep our mouth shut.