At night, when I close my eyes and try to relax All the things I have done wrong come before my sight, I feel suffocated and cry deep inside "WhathaveIdone?" , I shout "Isthatme?" , I doubt I search for keys to unlock the doors of my mind, But bad memories are all I find This isn't how I thought it to be, This isn't how I wanted myself to be Sometimes, that's not what we intend But the cycle continues and the struggle never ends