I sit to the left of a lonely man. He is smiling wider then the ocean can stretch. He is french. Wrinkled. Glowing. We have come to the topsham fair. Strange creatures pass and we gaze at them, Talking about how funny or pretty or different they are.
We eat french fries. He looks down. "Your grandmother never ate skins on potatoes. She was old fashioned." "You must of ate a ton of em then, huh?" "Oh yeah, all kinds."
Two girls around 20 skip on by Short denim dresses, Bright red lipstick, Candy apple shoes.
"Back in my day i'd be chasing those little girls all over the place. Now half the time they're chasing you!" I laugh "Yeah, I have fun papa, not as much as you had though" "I thought i'd find some old geezers like me but they aren't here." "Well I'm sure they're around. let's go find some."
We get off the bench walk a ways. His cane clicking on the old tar. We stopped to watch a young boy laugh on the pirate ship. It swings him up high He screams and giggles. We smile up at him. Watch his mother put hands to her mouth and heart attack.
We come across a bench with two grey haired men and an empty seat. "Can I sit here?" "Oh come on down!"
Papa, well, He starts talking about the good old days. "My wife passed away four months ago." He talks to the grey haired men.
As they make conversation, I realize, there's a reason us lonely men stick together.
We get it, Sometimes. You just need to talk about the pain like it's just something that happened. If you keep saying it. You can remember it. You can be there for awhile. Instead of here. Instead of lonely.
Lonely men love stories. We love hearing stories. We love telling our stories.