I never knew how to love myself
I drove around for years without wearing a seatbelt because I wanted to fly through the window
I started smoking cigarettes because I wanted to get lung cancer
I drank every weekend because I wanted to forget
I would cut my wrist so badly that I would pass out and one time I even had to get 5 stitches
I would look for ******* guys to treat me like **** because I knew I didn't deserve better
I would go days without eating hoping that I would get used to the hunger pain and just starve
I never knew how to love myself