I lay on my bed soaking my pillow with my tears
I try to remember exactly what is it that I fear
Is it the passing of time or the love that I lack?
Is it the mistakes that I made?
Or the fact that I can’t bring the past back
What is it that I’m afraid of?
Why am I so scared?
Is it the people I've hurt or the people hurting me?
Am I afraid of something I can’t see?
Is it the love of a friend or the loss of a family?
Is it the possibility that my life can end in a tragedy?
What is it that I fear the most?
Is it the hope I have that always seems to die?
...is it me?
Can it possibly be that the thing I fear the most is the thing I can’t be?
The things that I’m trying to understand
The me that I’m trying to be with when I'm sad?
The person I'm expected to be?
Is that what I fear?
I think the thing I fear the most is me...