"We're trying so ******* hard not to be a couple. Not to act like we want each other more than anything. But holy ****, it's like trying to forget how to breathe. How can you just stop doing something so natural that you never even learned to do it, something just happened on its own? How can you stop something that feels so ******* right and calming and healthy and try to find alternatives? Ways to complete life without doing the action you're trying so hard not to do? Pretending not to love him feels like being on a respirator. I just want to breathe again, I just want to breathe naturally; I just want to be his again, I just want to be us again."
what I sent to a friend tonight, revised. 2:00am 7/2/2015