I crave my mothers motivation....


I pray for my siblings energy.
I ran to dark corners.
I hide in my music.
I stare at the razor...
But I do not cut.
I google " Sad quotes".
I google "Depression facts".
I google " Teen angst", " Depression symptoms",
"Sad drawings", "Love quotes", " Heart break"...
And I stare for hours on end.
THIS is teen angst.
It's not parties.
It's not drinking or drugs or trouble.
Its sitting here wanting what I cant have
and knowing it doesn't get better
and crying because it wont go away
and because no one really understands how I feel.
its not the same.
This and more is teen angst....get it right.