I've handed you every missed opportunity I have ever had with a beautiful, intelligent man. You are now the object of my affection, like everyone who came before you wasn't real, only practice, but the sting of their rejection has lasted. It's still burned into my memory. I am giving it all to you. Please hold it, for a little while, don't let my chaos burn your skin, juggle it between fingers and let it wind around your arm like a boa constrictor. You have the weight of the world on your shoulders, it's up to you to redeem all mankind, in my mind. Please, smoke out the bad memories from the empty, needy cavern of my mind. Please, replace them with good, with your jokes, and smile, and kisses on the small of my back. ******* Bukowski was right, you have no knife, the knife is mine. But I gave it to you. Sharp as hell. Please, don't use it yet.