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i was sitting out
on the porch
of our old historic
home this morning

the beauty of
the desert all around me

birds were making
their early waking
shower songs
the sun having just
arrived in from
the east

the temperature
is perfect
all is right with
the world

right?

WRONG

i was obsessing
about a relationship

i've just had a
breakup

i was thinking
over and over again
about what HE had done

my parents are ill
i was obsessing about that

i am ill
that took a huge part
of my attention

how many times
have i done this?
burned a wide swath
through my
neuropathways
OBSESSING

not on good things

on the
BAD

we always complain
about the way we
ALWAYS
remember
the bad stuff

is this not
what we
OBSESS OVER
?

OUR
NEUROPATHWAYS
ARE SEARED
BY THE

NEGATIVE!!!

and so often we
take the positive

FOR GRANTED

honestly

how much
mental air time
do we give

a glorious sunset
a great time at the beach
a walk in the rain
a lovely flower

A BEAUTIFUL MORNING
?

our brains get
wired
for the
negative

right then and there
i started to
THANK GOD
for the beauty around me

i started to
notice things

a flower that was just opening
the exact color of
the pearleceant sky
(a kind of peachy lavender)

a silly
coyote
his coat
russet and shining
heading down
the alleyways!

IF I'D BEEN
OBSESSING OVER THE PAST
I GUARANTEE
I WOULD NEVER
HAVE
NOTICED

HIM!

i had to smile

and smiling is something
i have not done

IN A LONG TIME

♡♥♡

Catherine