your happiness should NEVER be based solely on one person. your home shouldn't ever be nestled inside of someone's chest or tucked into the creases of their arms. your happiness shouldn't be measured by the amount of times they say i love you or by how many times their fingers intertwine with yours because if you want to get brutally honest here, happiness that's based on a person will forever and always lead to disappointment. because the second that they even as much as threaten to step out of the door, you're back to the way you were or even worse. you're left with a shadow of your former self. you can't make a person your home no matter how sturdy you think the foundation is because their arms will always crumble around you and leave you cold. not because they meant to, but because they weren't built to. they could have had every intention of holdin' you up steady, but no matter how hard they try, their arms will never compare because they weren't made to be your brick walls. you have got to understand that. you can't put that much weight on one person. one human being. one soul. they can love you. they surely can love you. they can love you with all of their heart. and as you to them, but your home should not be composed of veins that do not belong to you, and arms that aren't attached to your own body. your happiness shouldn't be solely based on the way that your body seems to perfectly coincide with theirs. they can surely be a factor, a part of your happiness. but babe, you're in some trouble if they're your whole.
this is really raw and unedited, but i felt like it needed to be said.