You want to live in your own world, want to hide your problems from your girl, and living in fear that the truth will unfurl, causing your anxiety to swell and swirl.
Well, let me tell you of your mistake, thinking she can't tell when you fake hoping she won't figure out what's at stake, and all because you want her to have a break.
However sweet the gesture, she knows; It's evident the moment your smile goes, she feels your negative energy as it flows, and she notices when you no longer glow.
Despite your efforts, you see her sad, and at yourself, you become mad, because you hoped that you had kept from her, all things that are bad.
What you fail to realize is that when you look into her eyes, her feelings are yours; empathized, and you shouldn't be so surprised.
What good does it do to try to hide? Clearly she knows what you keep inside, but now you got her wondering why in her, you cannot confide.
What a blow to the heart that would be, even though you only want her to be happy...
it feels awful knowing my baby doesn't want to communicate with me...