I can't escape this sadness
I know because I've tried
Trying to fill the emptiness inside of you
Is like trying to finish a puzzle with a missing piece
An empty void, no perfect fit.
No right answer, no words that will fulfill or fix these broken pieces
That I call my life
This is reality, it's no nightmare I can wake up from
They tell you can achieve whatever you put your heart too
But they don't tell you you'll lose everything that matters along the way.
Growing up is a *****, a lesson I wish I could unlearn
So many moments  I wish I could undo
Can we hit the pause button so I can try to make sense of the misery inside of me that won't seem to die
Or lessen or be forgotten.
Because I need a moment to take this **** hole in
And process it, and accept it
But the truth is I never will
Because The life I've been dealt is incomprehensible
And it's something I've chosen to push into the corners of my thoughts
I only feel it's cold grip when I feel this vulnerable
A feeling I wish I could be without
So I'll do anything to keep it out
Because id rather hear anything but the truth.
That your gone and have left me to lead this life without you.