It feels like chaos
Rolling through my veins
Torn between love and hate
Memories crash the senses

What to do now?
How do you live a life un-lived
How do you move on
not regret, not desire
Wishing for a do-over

Time passes looking for relief
Fleeting moments of memory loss
Life continues In motions of happiness

The pain, the loss, the desire and obsession
It's not about him
Missing a love that was a facade
So fooled and so amazing.