This cough never goes.  It's the same cough my grandfather had in Auschwitz. We both don't have shoes that fit, but nobody cares. Somebody could be a famous keyboard player, a violinist, she may have been good with a pen- all of us our apes now and frozen. Maybe it's you who eats the intestines, heart, and eyeballs. Some say the taste is great, but it won't be I who eats the sight out of anything I've sent into the afterlife. A world of people who send the ****** carcasses blind, dead, and mute bumping into the brimstone walls in the middle Earth. It could be a hollow sounding hell or the sweet sounds of the Elysian fields, but now they are deaf, mute, and blind. These aren't the same persons using all of the hot water when they take their once a week shower. Even she could have showered every day. Even if there was a fire, a shower is safe from a fire. Steam is great for the lungs. Every creak is haunting, every peep is a beast living in the walls. I've been so scared I might never have an ******* again. This past week I got dust for nostalgia two for one.

You should remember this: people who aren't ***** don't wonder if they are or not. Your mom isn't right but everything you've been up to is off-putting, makes us all uneasy, what you're after is very, very wrong for you. You won't know you're wrong until you're tortured watching someone you love going through it. It is so ******* dry in here. This morning I must've blown my nose and coughed out an ounce of grossness. Dried throat problems, soot, ashy soot, not enough water or miracles, or simple answers to the questions racing through my head over and over. I ask you for an answer and all you can say is you're sleeping. Liars are weak at producing results. He is a liar that you are okay with somehow. I thought you might even fake or pretend something to give us assurance. We don't know what to do or what we're doing, but at least we admit we don't have a clue.

The first problem was stealing those sunglasses. $600 for another pair; that's not happening. I paid for dinner for you because you forgot to eat, then when they got it wrong you tried to take it out on me, and when they refunded the money, you kept it. That hardly makes any sense, and it's not the first time you've robbed me when you thought I didn't notice. I just haven't mentioned it because it gives me a bit of a smile watching you glide around your life thinking you're the ****- but really you are the ****. The coolest girl ever, I just wish you saw you the way I do; you deserve more than I think you'll give yourself. Maybe your **** is painted gold, since you still managed to squeeze your hips and lips and smile at the right time. It's nothing. Don't worry about it. When people have tried to fool me, it never happens the way they think it would. I tried to let you know you were worthy of me and that you're worthy of your own happiness and self-worth.  You have always impressed me one way or another. Nelson Mandela may have been a great musician. I've watched women and angels morph into biting flies and fish with ick, I've watched my wife lose her mind, second to that and I thought that was the worst....but second to that was watching you sabotage our trending beauty within one another. To take on someone else's child is like getting The Gift, but more expensive and depressing. I will never respect the way you've come to know him, and I cannot tell you how ridiculous it is to hear you talk about commitment. You're not even committed to yourself yet. But I'm here for you. I'm just going to tell the truth...

So maybe that makes him *** then. Idk i don't care