i dont want to cry anymore. i dont want to scream.
im tired of  living in doubt & fear, im so sick of being here.
i lay awake in bed until i slip into a bad dream.

thunder & lightning striking as i cry out your name,
but your nowhere to be found, all i can see is rain.
weak and weiry in a world so cold and dreary,
i will never be the same. broken by all of this pain.




i search for you, but only find more questions, pain and confusion.
stranded, abandoned, on this miserable plain that i have landed
tell me is this real? or just another illusion???