Oh what I'd give to cry again
To feel the things I've felt before
But now i've seen the striking sights
That make it hard to think of such simple aims

I've Felt so many out of place thoughts  
And jumped into some lonely dreams
Drank so many ghostly drinks
Crushed grapes with you in mind
Sang pigpen songs
Then watched you well
Fought armies in my crackled mind
I've Felt the love where none has been
Been sick inside my lethal head

I've thought about the pain to die
But when it's time to finally make amends
I struggle to bring out a sigh
Because that's not who I am at all
I'm someone you should  hate for life