I want to go home.
But my home was you.

You were everything I look for,
I begged for,
I hoped for,
and everything I prayed for.

But I deserve better.

I deserve better than your seasons,
I deserve better than your reasons,
I deserve better than YOU!

I am not the girl you could just left hanging.
I am not!
And comeback like nothing is happening.
I am not!

I am a woman of God.
And I deserve better.

I didn't know.

I didn't know this would be so painful.
I didn't know this would be so hard.

I didn't know you'll be gone.
I didn't know this time is for good.

I didn't know I loved you this much.
I'm sorry I didn't know...

“It happens like this.

"One day you meet someone and for some inexplicable reason, you feel more connected to this stranger than anyone else--closer to them than your closest family. Perhaps this person carries within them an angel--one sent to you for some higher purpose; to teach you an important lesson or to keep you safe during a perilous time. What you must do is trust in them--even if they come hand in hand with pain or suffering--the reason for their presence will become clear in due time."

Though here is a word of warning--you may grow to love this person but remember they are not yours to keep. Their purpose isn't to save you but to show you how to save yourself. And once this is fulfilled; the halo lifts and the angel leaves their body as the person exits your life. They will be a stranger to you once more.

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It's so dark right now, I can't see any light around me.
That's because the light is coming from you. You can't see it but everyone else can.”

Life is never fair.
It'll never will.

There are times when, I want to beg you to come back,
beg you to try, us, again.
I'm down on my knees, saying, please don't let me go,
please chase me, please.

I love you so much that it hurts.
It hurts to see you're alright without us.
I want to shout, 4 years!
And you just gave up.

Did I do something wrong?
Am I not enough?
Is there someone else?
Did you really loved me?

Why? Why? Why?
Why you leave?
Why you gave up?

Are you in pain also?
Did you cried also?

I don't know what to do. I'm trying so hard to forget, all the memories. But every word I hear, every place I go, every time I close my eyes. All of it. reminds me of you, of us.
I am trying to forget you. I'm trying to go on with my life without you.
I don't cry myself to sleep anymore.
I can stop myself from calling you.

But...

Why can't I, why can't I...

We had US.

Until we separate our paths.

I thought it'll be the two of us.

Until we broke us apart.

We had the best of our life.

Or I, only, had the best of my life.