Today when I was on a run, I looked down. I looked down and saw dozens of little bugs.

Each scurrying under my feet trying desperately to get out of my way.

Can bugs scream?

If they can, I didn't hear them.

Today when I was on a run, I looked down and saw dozens of little bugs and wondered how many I'd stepped on in my life without noticing.

Today when I was on a run, I looked down and saw dozens of little bugs and wondered-

Is that what you forgot to do with me?
Did you forget to look down?

You were my first true love.
& every second we spend together I will fall over again.
Your smile lights up the whole world.
Your blue eyes are as blue as the ocean.
Simply everything about you is just so perfect.
I'm glad I have you back now.
& trust me I'm never letting you go.

You
Tore apart
All of our memories
Inside your kingdom
Of thoughts.

You
Broke the promises
of an "I love you's" we had
And push them down
Into the dark void
We once filled.

You
Spoke the words
That meant the world
To my lifeless life
And pulled them inside your mouth
Again
While I fell down the floor
And crash into a million pieces.

And you
Wondered
Why I hate you so much
And why
I always love you
For that?

Your thoughts of me
Are unspoken
And are understand
By me.

Please,
*i want you to know that i do
i do
i do hate you
i do
love you

To keep an untold story
within this very soul
heart breaking pain
cracking through ribs
                                    ribs
                  ­                       ribs

At once such lovely bones
which crumble
                         crumble
                                       crumble

Second chance a delicacy
placing those candles
petrol fuel to a fire raging
                                          raging
        ­                                             raging

When I write love
there is a reason
the four letter words
become only three
                               three
                                        three

A four letter word
a heart replacing
an empty o
                      o
                          o

Hold­ing the letter
my heart not yours
you don't release
this fear
              fear
                     fear

I say I miss you
you say you
miss me
               me
                    me

Vulnerable fragile
bones break
                    break
                              br­eak

Resist temptation
only peace is
my love
               love
                       love.

© Sia Jane