I take a walk into the parkour graveyard,
looking for Polish dealers and cellphone halos.
I heard Thoth resides in sobriety,
but words fail me
whenever you are near.

I let my tongue run in endless stutters,
disguising 'I love you' as some off-hand request.
I could take you to dinner,
I could show you a longing
without the need for ***.

This late-night food has lost its flavour.
This ******* never picked up.
All that is left is to dial these numbers,
and wait by the window
for any car but yours.

Let's take a walk to the railway bridge.
We'll smoke a joint by the open forest.
You'll push your breath into mine,
make me high,
and forget why I ever
felt so low.

for Leo*

I have no words to say today,
I used them all last night.
The city streets
were dark and bleak,
but I kept you in my sight.

We traded cash for hot *******,
we were shooting for the moon.
This force-fed high
of no reply,
always falls apart too soon.

In flame of hair she poured my drinks
and smiled across the bar.
I don't need this drug,
this pollutant fog,
to find a shining star.

I need to walk that nature path
beyond my father's grave.
To find a self
in better health,
in a place I can be brave.

I have no words to say today,
in the sober morning light.
I'll fall to silence,
I'll walk away,
before I talk again,
come night.

Take me to the fields
where memories form
in rolling banks of bonfire,
torchlight, and dead-end riverbeds.
Pass smoke in a kiss
across the group,
blowing wind up your skirt
to satisfy a dream.
If I could afford this life,
I'd live it; where everything
is so endlessly free.

I am bitter in pills,
as they clench my jaw shut.
I'll feign a good listener,
if you'll brush your hand
against mine. Our high-wire
existence is based on lies;
the lie is out and now
we're all too tired of *******.
Just hold back on the cider,
if it  makes you feel sick,
or forget how to live.

What happened to
London? This new wave of thinking?
It turned to drinking
and a healing bruise;
waiting for trains to break
my mind-silence. I can't feign belief
in some new lover's meeting,
or a cure for dementia.
I'm sure I'll forget you
in a lifetime of drink.
I will hold you immortal,

as I set you in ink.

I'll never get used to seeing you
Every single time
It's a new you
reflecting
a new me

We both traced the constellations
those that were unknown
the stars danced to a different tune last night
Those we called our own
The astronomers stencilled each complicated line
With our bare hands we scratched each curve
We may have not  heard yet
We've built a universe of our own

he was static electricity, room illuminated when he was near
welcoming coffee eyes, his laughter was all i could hear
warm fingers trace my veins, he made me want to be better
home was in his arms, please, lets just lay here forever

he had a mind like the oceans, mine still so small
he was the world, i was nothing at all
he outgrew me like a favorite pair of shoes
he had ships left to sale, but to me he was all i knew

you asked me
what i saw
when i held your face
in my hands

you asked me
what i saw
when i stared
up at the sky

you asked me
what i saw
when i looked
over your shoulder
to the ocean

you asked me
what i saw
when i couldn't take my eyes
off the page
of the book
open
in my lap

you asked me
what i saw
when the sunlight
stretched across
your chest
and warmed your heart

and all i could do
was kiss you
and smile

because
words
are like silence

and sometimes
they can be too much

the whole world
was held
in a palm

and scattered
across the edge
of the ocean

it shattered
when the rain
met the sun
and the fire
died
consumed
by the love

of the clouds