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17.4k · Oct 2014
GONE TOO SOON
Paula Lee Oct 2014
I know you were smiling down from Heaven
as  we had your Memorial Service Yesterday,
I know you were watching as we gathered in your name
Each of us sharing our favorite memories we had of you.
There wasn't a dry eye to be found
as we each mourned the loss of you in our own way.

GONE FROM OUR LIVES TO SOON

I will remember you in the rising sun and its going down,
I will remeber you with each snowflake that gently
swirls to the ground,
And I will remember you, your soft spoken voice
The most beautiful sound.

GONE FROM OUR LIVES TOO SOON

No one can ever steal the beauty of you,
the love you brought to our lives,
Your Spirit Soars today with the Angels
but the memories will always survive,
My blood and yours forever intwined.

*GONE FROM OUR LIVES TOO SOON
8.8k · Jul 2014
Dear God
Paula Lee Jul 2014
Ashes to ashes and dust to dust
Call this assurance if you must;
But when it's time to say Farewell
To one you love, it's just plain hell.

There are no words, no healing balm,
To fill the void, to ease the calm;
And not a thing that one can say
Will drive the quick hot tears away.

We look upon the empty chair
And seek the one no longer there;
And so heartbreaking is the pain
We question if we'll meet again.

How grim indeed, if death should be
The Bitter End--- Eternity;
Just some vague dream conceived by Man
And not a part of any plan.

But God has taken such great care
To note the sparrow in the air;
His Love alone can cover all
And Mark a simple Sparrows' fall.

And if he cares for the birds that fly,
then he must hear My Anguished cry;
"Dear God, I yield my grief to Thee
For Thou alone can comfort me."
To Everyone who is struggling with Grief
3.8k · Jan 2015
You Know Who's Awesome?
Paula Lee Jan 2015
POETIC T
He's an Amazing writer who not enough people appreciate
He's an Amzing Friend with a Great sense of humor
I could go on and on but most of all he hasn't given up on me when others have and that says alot about his character to me.
You really don't know what you're missing!!!
2.8k · Apr 2014
SOULMATE
Paula Lee Apr 2014
If I'd but known that I'd been given
but one Love in my lifetime
I gladly would have walked
the road alone

For surely to have the Love
of your life, the mate of your soul
so violently ripped from your arms
and your heart after so short a time.

The pure agony of no longer
having that bond,
I'd rather have remained ignorant
than left with such despair!|

How do you live
With a broken Heart
and half a Soul?
2.0k · Jun 2014
The Cardinal Rule
Paula Lee Jun 2014
IF I CAN'T SEE YOU

I CAN'T TRUST YOU

THAT'S THE CARDINAL RULE!

SO TONIGHT I FIND

I'VE BEEN BLIND

I'VE BEEN TWICE THE FOOL!
You two have taken the last trust i had and torn it to shreds!
Thanks ap and cs
1.9k · Jan 2015
MY JOURNEY
Paula Lee Jan 2015
If I'd known the Journey
Would have been this long.
I never would have started
For I'm not that strong

You put mountains before me
Around every single turn,
I've crawled till I was weary
And every muscle burned

I walked with feet bloodied
On a path never true,
Never knowing which the way
To bring me back to you

I walked in rain so blinding
The sun never shone
Darkness my companion
Never felt so alone

Finally dawned the day
The horizen in sight,
After years of struggle
I could lay down the fight

The road was never meant to be
A way back to your heart,
I was meant to be alone
Right from the very start

Now I lay down this life
Strength finally found.
Enough to dig this grave for me
In Gods' forsaken ground
God Have Mercy On My Soul
1.5k · May 2014
DIGNITY 10w
Paula Lee May 2014
There
        Is
       No
   Dignity
        In
    Dying
        It
        Is
       An
   Illusion
Mom wanted to die at home with Dignity But I've found out there is no Dignity in the dying process. What Her and I are going through is not dignified!
1.4k · Jan 2015
Walking The Road Alone
Paula Lee Jan 2015
There was a time my mind and heart
had its freedom
to wander aimlessly through the days
but then I started walking the road of life,

up and down mountains, hills, and valleys,
stumbled and fell more times than I can count,
hit more dead ends and had to start over

I always walked the road alone!

I came across the ocean,
there my feelings built on sand castles as
the tide comes in, they disappear
one grain at a time til nothings left
the waves crashing all my defenses.
Rushing out of safe harbors...

My life is gone,washed away on
seas of regret,
what lies ahead when it all lies behind
but the memories?

Will I have the strength left to wipe the tears
from my eyes,
as I come to the end of the road?

The road I've walked alone!
1.3k · Jul 2014
OLD MAJESTIC OAK TREE
Paula Lee Jul 2014
A beautiful Angel with broken wings
sits on the bough of an Old Majestic Oak Tree,
Eyes downcast, Tears falling
on an old plaid blanket spread underneath.

Just a broken Angel
Lamenting a Fractured Dream!!!
No Comment!
1.3k · May 2014
Angel
Paula Lee May 2014
You came into my life
When all was lost
There was no moon,
the stars had died
and all around was darkness.

I had lost my heart, my soul
and in the black, lost my way
I couldn't see the road before me
I couldn't go, I couldn't stay


Then out of nowhere right before me
stood an Angel all aglow
Lighting the scary darkened path
and showing me the way to go

The stars came back, Heaven was lit
Behind me the moon began to rise
The path grew brighter and I could see
The Angel had opened my closed eyes

I don't know when that Angel left me
for she left as quickly as she came
but she led me from that forsaken path
and I knew my life would never be the same!
There's an Angel in my world now!
1.1k · Jun 2014
KITTY, KITTY
Paula Lee Jun 2014
The Kitten Quiet, Stalks Her Prey
The Sparrow Flies On Golden Wing
Espy The Sparrow, The Kitten Purrs
Come To Kitty, Sparrow Sing!!!
Just a Reminder!!!
1.1k · Jun 2014
DEMONS
Paula Lee Jun 2014
You've taken every Dream i've had
Laid waste to every plan
cruely taken all i've Loved.
Left me in this Godforsaken land,

When I called out in the night
while in hot writhing agony
with a troubled heart unconsoled
Why did you not answerer me?

When I begged you take this pain
from my aching breast
I felt the arrow through my heart
Blood pouring from my chest,

I Prayed to you a thousand times
and pled a million more
Why leave these fiery beasts
Banging,busting down my door?

You left me in the dark
with Demons and no control
I couldn't help but think at last
this my death bell toll.

You left my life to Satan
when I did but beg release
and like a fool I still Prayed
for my Soul--Abiding Peace

You left my prayers unanswered
night after night- No Reply
What did I ever do to you
That even my death you would deny,

As silent tears run down my cheeks
I will Pray to you No More!
I realize you have Forsaken me
and left Demons at my door.
Yes I Believe in God! Just a stage of Grief, not sure which one Take Your Pick!
1.0k · Aug 2014
COCOON
Paula Lee Aug 2014
She chases the darkness,
Nothing, but darkness and her,
She sits there,
Darkness a blanket she can wear,
And she listens to the nothingness
that only the darkness allows;

And if she was still aware,
I'm sure she would get down on her knees
and Thank the darkness for the
Silence,
The Blessed Silence
that cocoons her now;

and when daylight comes,
she runs and hides,
hiding from the light that burns,
hiding from the pain and hiding
from the voices, the voices to loud,
and she waits for the sunset,
Eager to be spared.
then she's running again,
into the darkness,
back to the Nothingness
that the darkness allows.*

And if she was still aware,
I'm sure she would get down on her knees,
and Thank the darkness
for the Silence,
The Blessed silence
that cocoons her now.
1.0k · Jul 2014
WHISPERS
Paula Lee Jul 2014
Your whispers walk across my memory
begging to be heard by me

I miss you girl, please believe *

They tiptoe across my heart
Leaving colored smudges like abstract art

I Promise I didn't want to part

Memories of your death take over me
making me shake uncontrolably

I'm the Angel watching over you in your grief

Leaving nothing but destruction
of the two of us, life, left only one

Oh! Love, Death was the thief that come.

Oh Baby!
Don't shed those tears over me, I Do Love you past eternity
990 · Jun 2014
FOOL
Paula Lee Jun 2014
READ BETWEEN THE LINES
________
  I
_______
­LOVE
________
YOU!
_______­__
Men can be dense sometimes!
971 · Sep 2014
TIME HEALS SOME
Paula Lee Sep 2014
Mourning is like a puzzle
outlined dot to dot
.------.
Time heals some
others not,

It's but another Journey
life throws our way,
We all must walk it
come what may,

Some will heal to sunshine
Some drown in the rain,
For some Mourning claims
the prize of pain,

Belief in God, helps a few
while others live in doubt,
For some the Journey ends
as it's figured out,

Like me the lines get blurred
the path not always clear,
but praying that God
is somewhere near,

Mourning is like a puzzle
outlined dot to dot,
.--------.
Time heals some,
Others not.
964 · May 2014
SIGH TO SYE
Paula Lee May 2014
And behold I woke one morn and heard
the most glorious Sigh
and in my grief strickin state
I turned around and listened

I felt Gods presence  and knew
God had not abandoned me
in my suffering,

God had turned that Sigh into
a Beautiful Soul with  her hands
with the purple fingernails and sparklies
extended to me in Friendship,

God had not abandoned me at all
but left me with this Glorious gift
This Beautiful Sye to show me life
was still worth living,

I reached out from all my sorrow
and grabbed her hand that had become
my lifeline Blessed by God himself and
I climbed out of the darkness into the light
beckoning from her and in her
                 SYE
I started to live again!
Thank You Sye for the Trust and Friendship and Your Beautiful Light Shining down on me lighting my way home!
932 · May 2014
To All Concerned
Paula Lee May 2014
Last night I came onto the hellopoetry site to try to drown out my mom's death rattle in some good poetry. Quite a few people, good decent people who have gathered around me and supported me during this agonizing time and one of those sweet Poets was being verbally and mentally attacked by
                                   LOGHAIN CARV'O
His criticisms were malicious and very hurtful and his taunting her was more than I could bare for a friend. She related the conversation to me and she was really upset. She told me what he said verbatim' It was way uncalled for. And she is not the only one he is doing this to. He's being offensive to the extreme.Calling her a peasant and telling her she couldn't write. And I'll probably catch all kinds of hell for doing it but I paid a "VISIT" to his site and left this comment and I Quote

"Stop picking on ---------You call this a poem. You have some nerve telling her she can't write and you write crap like this. Well 1 out of 82 reads isn't so hot is it. Come on and kick me a few times. I should be easy pickings for you. I dare you ******"

Well he responded with and I quote

"It is obvious you do not have artistic vision like I, that or you did not read my poems and just came here in a petty attempt to demoralize I in retaliation to the criticisms I have revealed to most peoples "poetry" I wish to waste no more breath on my lessers. Just remember I when you see my talent spread out across the world. Remember how you showed the Greatest, most renowned and revered artist no support" End Quote.

Loghain carv'o also stated  that "The community on this site is rather poor"

He also stated
"This site isn't exactly known for it's Grand Community"

So now I know he doesn't even mind kicking some one who is already down. and i for one would like to know since he doesn't like this site or the Real Poets why stay? If he doesn't like the"GRAND COMMUNITY" why the hell he's still here. If he doesn't like us "lessers' why be among us.

And I didn't even tell you the most malicious comments.

When some one attacks a friend I will respond. That's what friends do.
And Loghain carv'o is proving to be no ones friend. And his
                          GOD COMPLEX is offensive!

I SERVE ONE GOD ONLY AND IT IS NOT Loghain carv'o!!!

I only have one thing to say to Loghain carv'o and that is and I quote again

My visit to hellopoetry last night to get away for a moment from listening to my mothers death rattle, to read a few poems and find a little Peace for a few moments was ruined by you and your offensive attitude and comments and since i'm already in a living hell right  nowI can find you some room here so come enjoy hell with me. Oh but I almost forgot you don't want to consort with us "lessers"
THE MIGHTY SURE DO HAVE A LONG WAY TO FALL LOGHAIN

                   YOURS SINCERELY
                                   Paula

This is for you friend love Paula

You can dish it out but you sure can't take it!
Okay  this is where you tell me how wrong I am Dave. I'll be waiting.





    COME SHRINK ME DAVE I WARNED YOU I WAS GOING TO DO IT.
P.S. The Coward now has a Friend Verbally Harassing her.
900 · May 2014
MY DEAR LEO
Paula Lee May 2014
You stabbed me 24 times and slit my throat
then dropped me to the ***** floor
as I watched, you walk away from me
You stabbed the man who tried to help me twice more,

You left me drowning in a pool of my blood
and never once looked back to see
you just kept walking out the door
as my lifes blood pour out of me,

There was a young Sergeant
who came running to my aid
ripping the shirt right off his back
pressing it to my neck to stop the spray,

He saved the life you meant to take
you didn't even ask if I'd died
my heart stopped twice that night
Oh how those Surgeons tried

I'm the one left in a prison
while now your'e walking free
"No Remorse" I was told
for what you did to me

But Know this My Dear Leo
if I ever see you, you better run
no one will have to wonder Why
You'll answer to my Gun.
This is a True story and the man's name is Leo Edward Booth and he is free! I only shared this because a SGT. in the Army saved my life that day
882 · Aug 2014
LAY ME DOWN AND LOVE ME
Paula Lee Aug 2014
Lay me down and love me
I'll make you forget her for the night,
Forget just for this evening
Lay me down and hold me tight.

Don't you know I want to girl
but I can't turn off my heart'
not even for an evening girl
it would end before we even start.

Lay me down and love me anyway
I've waited Oh so long for you!
I'll make you forget her, I know I can
Lay me down and love me, I NEED you too.

Don't you know I want to girl
but It just wouldn't be fair,
Not even for an evening girl
"She" would still be there!

Please Lay me down and Love me anyway!
This was not a collaboration!
875 · Sep 2014
MY REDEEMER
Paula Lee Sep 2014
Oh Lord my Redeemer
Lord of all surveyed,
Walk with me this morning
in all beauty displayed;

Washed in your blood
now my eyes do see
all i'd since forgotten
that you always walked with me;

and when this day is over
and the twilight fades a way,
I'll lift mine eyes to heaven
In Christ I will pray;

Oh Lord my Redeemer
forgive my sins this eve,
know that I am faithful
know that I believe;

Thank you Lord for bounties
I'd long forgotten them,
I Thank You for Salvation
and the Joy to walk with him;

When my day is over
and my portion met,
Let me see heavens' beauty
A sight I won't forget;

Thanks to all your glory
My sins you've cast away,
Thank You my Redeemer
In Christs name I Pray!
Amen
A start of a new day for me I hope!
865 · Jun 2014
GRIEF
Paula Lee Jun 2014
I opened my door to Grief this morning, he shoved me aside and walked to a chair sat down and said" Here Goes, this may take awhile"
"There are five Stages of Grief" he mumbled,
"Today you are in Stage 1, but tomorrow could be Stage 5 and a month from now, you may pass into Stage 2. Stages 3& 4 could happen together a year from now."
He looked up to me and said"Are you confused yet, that could be any Stage"
Through my tears, he calmly rose and went out my door, turned for one last look at me and said" I'm Stage 6 but I come 1st"
In Anger I slammed the door and wondered to myself,
is Anger Stage 4,2,5,3 or1.
I fell to the floor screaming" Why in Hell didn't anyone ever tell me about Stage 6"
There are only 5 stages of grief and they're a *****!!!!!!!!!!!!!! If you're confused guess what I am?
857 · Jun 2014
BITCH 10w
Paula Lee Jun 2014
Ha! Last word was mine, I Blocked Your *** *****!
I've had enough of your hateful messages and yes I know I was "played" by Ormand as you so "kindly" put it!
833 · Jun 2014
Your Things, Your Life
Paula Lee Jun 2014
This is the second time in a month
I have cried so much today
Going through your things
deciding what to keep,
what to throw away?

It's like there's memories
attached to every single thing
Do I keep the china?
What about your wedding ring?

It's only been thirty days
I wasn't prepared for the extra pain
Throwing your Life away
Is like losing you all over again!
I'm being pushed to do this and I'm just not ready!
819 · Jun 2014
Finding Peace
Paula Lee Jun 2014
I came down to the country
to commune with Nature for a while
to try to find myself again
hopefully find my lost smile

Got lost along the way somehow
suffering from so much pain
I hope on this hundred acres
I can find myself again

Dawn is just now breaking
the leaves rustling on the trees
a soft warm wind is blowing
I find myself start to ease

I 4 -wheel to the river
just to sit and watch it flow
letting it float my cares away
sending them off and away they go.

it's time to continue on my ride
trails are calling out "Come See"
while I ride i'm going to search
for the Peace that has alluded me.

I'll know the spot when I feel it
it will speak to my heart of Peace
and I'll reside there for a time
letting that Peace wash all over me!
I went to a Place Called THE ROCK and roamed a hundred acres.
No tv no computers and I found my Peace for a while.
753 · Jul 2014
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! (*SYE*)
Paula Lee Jul 2014
Today, you turn 17
Guess what that means?
I get to razz you all day long,
Singing Happy Birthday songs.

Balloons released to the sky,
Just for you, my dearest Sye,
Birthday cheer, Well wishes to,
And all my Love, I send to you.

You will always be my little girl,
Grown up now, to face the world.
Happy Birthday! Daughter dear,
As you celebrate another year!

And as you blow those candles out,
Know that without a doubt,
A Mothers' Love is always there,
We've wrapped your heart with loving care.

Pretty pink and silver bows,
For the Most, Loving Soul,
I wish for you, my dearest Friend,
Angel Kisses, Heaven sent!

May your day be truly blessed,
And Joy abounds in your Heart
Today and Always!
Happy Birthday Day! Daughter,
Love,
Mummy
732 · May 2014
Don't Love Me
Paula Lee May 2014
I'm the only person I know
who can destroy everyone
I come into contact with

So don't love me!

With my best intentions
I manage to bring pain
to my friends and come
between them

Don't love me!

With tears of pain
and of sorrow I beg you

Don't love me!

I am unlovable

Don't love me!
723 · Aug 2014
FOR YOUR MERCIFUL GOD
Paula Lee Aug 2014
You took two stars,
that burned so bright
and crushed them in your hands,
and though you won't miss just two,
to me you left a huge hole
that I can't even begin
to understand.

If this has been some kind of test
then I know I have failed,
How far down can you send me
when I'm already in Hell?

And God I'm asking point blank,
What is this divine plan you have devised?
that you can take so much from me
in so little amount of time.

This lone sparrow has fallen
and I've hit the hard ground,
Where was your hand then Lord?
your love and mercy,
I have not found.

How can I be thankful
for the little things you give,
When you take the big things from me?
You have left me blind and broken,
You took my beautiful stars,
left me unable to see.

I gave my all to you, my everything
Now, there's nothing left at all
You Lost one of your sparrows
When You Let Me Fall!
Losing my mom and then my neice today is to much!
706 · May 2014
Dream Waltz
Paula Lee May 2014
FLY ME TO THE SKY SPARROW
WITH YOUR GOLDEN GILDED WINGS
LET'S WALTZ UPON THE CLOUDS
AS OUR HEAVENLY ANGEL SINGS
A SONG SO SWEET AND PURE
EVERY NOTE PLAYED A SYMPHONY
LET"S TWIRL AMONG THE STARS MY FRIEND
TO MUSIC JUST FOR YOU AND ME
LET"S TAKE A TURN AROUND HEAVENS' BALLROOM
FOR NOW, LEAVING SADNESS AND SORROWS BEHIND
JUST DANCING TO THE MUSIC
NOTHING BUT THE DANCE ON OUR MINDS
AND AS THE MUSIC STOPS
AND YOU GIVE YOUR COURTLY BOW
I CURTSY LOW TO YOU MY FRIEND
NOT KNOWING HOW TO THANK YOU NOW!
FLY ME TO THE SKY SPARROW
TO DANCE ONE WALTZ WITH YOU
WITH YOUR GOLDEN GILDED WINGS
YOU HAVE MADE A DREAM COME TRUE!
I ALWAYS WANTED TO WALTZ
THANK YOU FOR THE DANCE!
691 · Aug 2014
WHY I LOVE YOU! Paula & Sye
Paula Lee Aug 2014
I love you for your courage
your wisdom speaks to me,
they give to me the inner strength
I need when I am weak;

I love you for who you are
how you give your heart to me,
filling me with all your love
finally setting me free;


Love makes toes trip lightly
as we dance our way along,
Two in love find happiness
then soar on wings of song:

Kissing me softly
as we finish our dance,
Entangled in each others embrace
we share one final glance;


And we need no words to ever say
the thoughts we share alone,
Our little smiles, our little sighs
Speak volums of their own.
Thank You Sye for writing with me!!!
683 · Aug 2014
How 10w
Paula Lee Aug 2014
How will I get to Heaven
            I'm afraid of heights!
I really am afraid of heights!
669 · Apr 2014
MY RAINBOWS
Paula Lee Apr 2014
You always loved giving me rainbows
I could always expect to get one after a fight
a couple of throws of your fists
a few kicks in the spleen every night.
They start out black add blood red
with a tinge of purple
Rainbows made by you.

A couple of days pass the bruises fade
you see **** brown and yellow
My Rainbows made.
But now you're not happy
cause you can't find green
so you start another Rainbow
cause you're so **** mean.

Night after night you act so concerned
I can expect more Rainbows
at your every turn.

You always loved giving me Rainbows

"IS THIS MY *** OF GOLD?"
            















\\
663 · Jul 2014
Not Okay!
Paula Lee Jul 2014
I just found out, the 'GOVERNMENT"Has given every Pharmacy in all the USA a "Quota", they get a certain amount of Painpills at the begining of the Month and that has to be enough til the Next month;  A "Quota"

Seriously!!!
Well its the end of the month,

My Pharmacist said she could'nt even borrow from another Pharmacy because they didn't have any either,
HOW Many are out here hurting?
Her advice was to have my Doctor call them in at the begining of each month, she was also mad that she still had to give out painspills to first come, first serve, that she still had to give out painpills to someone she knew was abusing them and then had to deny a cancer patient.
This does Not Solve the problem you idiots!
and causes undo Pain unto  the honest, hard working, the hurting ones.
End of the month, there are no more to give out.
So here we sit in pain so bad you want to scream!
I'm a Law abiding Citizen, pay taxes and here i sit hurting
How Much Are we going to take from the "GOVERNMENT"
True Story!
654 · Apr 2014
STRANGER
Paula Lee Apr 2014
Come stranger Enter my Domain
Search and break the firewalls for the entrance to my life
One by one break through
and behind the last wall you will find
UTTER DEVOTION, LOYALTY AND TRUTH.
FRIENDSHIP THAT KNOWS NO BOUNDS,
SOMEONE TO LEAN ON IN GOOD TIMES AND BAD,
SOMEONE TO TALK AND LISTEN TO YOU AT ANY HOUR OF THE DAY OR NIGHT but most of all you'll find LOVE that has no bounds
that never fails when others leave you.
You'll find respect for who you are, for what you believe in.

BUT I WARN YOU - ENTER AT YOUR OWN RISK!

If you ever want to leave me you'll always have the freedom to do so
But do it Gently and seal back the walls that you entered through
Then I can change the Password to my heart and the Username of my life, so then I can wait here until the next stranger comes along!
For all the strangers yet to come into my life.
631 · Jun 2014
LOST MEMORIES/ Lullaby
Paula Lee Jun 2014
Lost in the swirling winds of time
moments spent in the dark abyss
I no longer remember your sweet love
memeries lost, not there to miss

My mind magically forbids thoughts
of all the sorrow and the pain
Like the echoes of wind when songs end
causing tears,rivelets cascading like rain

Seasons to come, Seasons that have passed
none matters to me, they're all the same
You're gone, swept away by linear tides
my mind no longer remembers your name

Solid foot walls standing sentinel
protecting me, from long ago
when you left, no choice of yours
with angel wings glistening like snow

Alas! against my will, your echo unfreezes
one moment in time, permitted to pass by
that day of horror when i buried love
Angels sing to me a Six feet Under Lullaby!
Too much time to think!
622 · Jul 2014
The Lonely Kitty
Paula Lee Jul 2014
Just a lonely kitten who goes out at night,
and she sits, looking up at the vast sky,
and she's wondering why the sparrows
Can't come down and play with her, oh why!

"CAUSE WE ARE ANGELS"

She just sits there patiently and in awe,
watching her Sweet sparrows dance afar,
their Golden Wings a'shimmer off the stars,
Still not knowing her sparrows are.....

*IN DISGUISE!
616 · Jun 2014
MY PAST
Paula Lee Jun 2014
Oh! Thou be my past
Love twas not meant to last
but I tell thee true
I doth Love you
with thy fond embrace
thy hand upon my face
I dream of love and glee
Alas! Doth thou love me?
or is it but sad farewell
Twould be mine own pure hell
and in my grief
like shadow'd leaf
I fall to the ground
Nay love hath found
to my unending sorrow
thou dost not love on the morrow
Oh! thou be my past
Alas! Twas love not meant to last!
Oh well I tried it without Ajit bad write
598 · Jun 2014
HEAVEN 10w
Paula Lee Jun 2014
Heavens not so far away

                               My Heart Hears Your Echo!
586 · Jul 2014
NIGHTMARE
Paula Lee Jul 2014
You come at me at night, invading my mind as I sleep,
Like the riptides of the ocean. You drag me down into
the Netherworld of the sea,
You waiting there, knife in hand plunging in my helpless
body,Again and Again, The Agony of pain in my breast
as you slash your way through my mind. my blood mingling
with the saltwater...

The God of the sea, releasing my battered and bruised Soul
to the surface, Panic leaving me unable to swim paralell to
the shore of this nightmare, can't swim out of your riptide.

My mind Screaming, Screaming me awake, Tears running
down my face, tasting salt on my tongue, Is it from the sea?
The taste so real, Is this Nightmare really over? will it ever
Really be over?
The knifing really happened but not in the sea, but the nightmare is real!
579 · Jul 2014
THINKING
Paula Lee Jul 2014
Thinking,
       Thinking,
             Thinking.....  
          I Almost Had A Thought......
Thinking,
         Thinking,
               Thinking....
          I Was Going To Tell You.....

You were Gone.  :(
551 · Jul 2014
"HONEY"
Paula Lee Jul 2014
When A Love Dies, you say you die,
But Honey!
Let Me tell you something,
I'm dying
Every
Second
of
the
day,
Feeling
the
Pain
every
second
of
the
Hour
on
hour
til
I
die
Because
My
Love
­Is
In
The
Grave
And
I'm
Not
So the next time" Honey"
You tell me you died
because you got jilted

**Think about it!
539 · Jul 2014
LONG JOURNEY HOME
Paula Lee Jul 2014
To be so Lucky twice in a lifetime
to Love a man so pure of heart
With Faith anew, I Pledge to you
An Endless Love, an Endless start.

Two Souls entwined, made into one
up and around Loves' unending vine,
twines my Life, your life, ours
as your heart beats, so shall mine.

A Lovesong written in the stars
and to all that lend an ear
A path so finelytuned it sings
so Loud the Angels hear.

And Oh at last to find such joy
A place so Great, known
and now I lay me down to rest
FOR IT"S BEEN A LONG JOURNEY HOME!
Just Dreaming Tonight!
523 · Apr 2014
MY OPINION OF CHESS
Paula Lee Apr 2014
You rode into my life
on your black KNIGHT
and you stormed my CASTLE
with your charm,
Then you used your PAWNS
to keep me IN CHECK
and you told me you
were my KING.
I began to hate you so I
confessed to my BISHOP
but you made a fatal mistake.
You underestimated my Queen
and I escaped
CHECKMATE!!!
Any one else want to try Castleling?
520 · May 2014
YOUR FINAL GIFT
Paula Lee May 2014
IN MY GRIEVING HEART
I HAVE BEEN TRULY BLESSED
WITH THE MEMORY OF YOU
PEACE YOUR ETERNAL REST

HANDS UPON YOUR BOSUM CROSSED
NOW MOTIONLESS, WITH LIFTED FACE
YOUR SOUL FLOWN AWAY
GLIDING WITH AMAZING GRACE

WITH TEARS OF SORROW I BID FAREWELL
ME WITH A HEART LEFT BROKEN
I WATCH THE SPARROW JOURNEY WITH YOU
YOU LEAVING BEHIND A GLORIOUS TOKEN

THE LAST GIFT YOU HAVE GIVEN
A HEARTBEAT LEFT INSIDE OF ME
A GOLDEN THREAD FROM MOTHER TO DAUGHTER
THAT BINDS OUR SOULS ETERNALY
i love you mom gone 1 week!
500 · Apr 2014
Untitled
Paula Lee Apr 2014
When you wake
I hold your hand
tell you everythings okay

IT'S NOT I'M LYING!

You look at me
with drug glazed eyes
and ask "what's wrong"
I say "nothing"

I'M LYING

You sit up for
just a moment
Tell me your'e
Writing a letter to GOD
I tell you the Angels coming

YOU SAY NO YOUR'E LYING!
497 · Nov 2014
NOVEMERS CALLING ME
Paula Lee Nov 2014
I hear November calling
as it does every year,
the chill that's in the air
cold enough to freeze my tears,

I hear the lonesome call
whistling through the wind
swirling pain all around me
embracing me once again

I hear November calling
as it wraps me in despair
reminding me of all we've lost
another year without you there

I hear in the distance
the old church bell toll
once agian i'm here
to pray for your soul

The cold, dank earth beneath my feet
my hand upon your marble stone
memories besiege my heart
as I stand here again all alone

November calls and I come running!
Just missing my soulmate who died November 12, 1984
Rest In Peace Randy
491 · Feb 2015
WORLDS LAST CRUEL JOKE
Paula Lee Feb 2015
Where once we thought we owned the world and forever was our playground,
Tomorrow, The light of our two souls merging into one...

WE WERE WRONG!!!

You have gone, My heart has lost your echo
Death the thief,
That stole this Poets' words
Silence once again reigns in my world...
The heavens cry out for me,
For the loss of you left me mute...

Memories fade, As the stars lose their twinkle,
One by one they fade into the dark,
The dark that binds tear-stained eyes
Takes away all life colors.

Struck dumb and blind, I'm left to travel, on lifes' road alone
The worlds last cruel joke,
To leave me alone and loveless...

But Revenge will be sweet as I stumble
Too my last horizon,
God will be there....
To open my eyes, and I
Can once again stare into yours
and
Know that I am finally home,
My voice returned,
To tell you

Through all these years...
I Never once stopped Loving You!!!
489 · Jul 2014
Hey
Paula Lee Jul 2014
Hey
It's not the Lack of Love, that hurts right now,

It is your ANGER!
487 · Jul 2014
Daddy
Paula Lee Jul 2014
You've been gone 43 years today
The little girl in me still cries
Just like it was yesterday it seems
They came to tell me you had died

I shut my memories down, closed tight
Built the walls to protect my heart
I remember nothing of childhood
Not one memory to impart,

The Child inside will cry for you
For Memories lost to this day
Years ago the Slate wiped clean
My Mind still greives, I say

But known, I was loved by you
So on this day, my heart replies
I miss you so **** much daddy
Your child sits here alone and cries!
444 · Apr 2014
I CAN'T FIND YOU ANYWHERE!
Paula Lee Apr 2014
I couldn't find you anywhere so I got out my Dictionary
and I looked under VICIOUS.CRUEL and INHUMANE
They sounded like you but your name wasn't there. So
I thought I'd look up THIEF, ABSCONDER and *******
They also sounded like you but again your name wasn't there,
So then I checked under PHYSCOPATH  AND MURDERER
these fit you better but I still couldn't find your name.

I panicked and got really worried then so I had a conversation
with GOD and I asked him please would he look in his book,
THE BOOK OF LIFE and see if he could find your name there

LO AND BEHOLD YOUR NAME ISN'T THERE
"MAY THERE BE NO MERCY ON YOUR SOUL!"

Just when I was putting my Dictionary away
GOD yelled out "FORGIVENESS"
So I look up forgiveness and GUESS WHAT!

"MY NAME IS NOT THERE!"

Maybe I should have looked up
THE DEFINITION OF DEFINITION
THIS IS FOR LEO
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