Standing there in my dreams with your ugly scars
But there is no way you can feel it how you abuse all of it
With your yellow hair touching my ear
You only show up when i'm cold
Only when i don't have bold
Stinky clown! Why are you stuck on my head ?
I see you everywhere i see you nowhere
You can touch me  but i can't do the same
Your face painted with flour
Your ugly face that glare
Stinky clown! Why are you stuck on my head ?
I know who killed me in front of me
My eyes are deceiving me
Darkness and evil is thick in your face
I tried to end up this chase
I tried to **** you but i killed me
I'm screaming but no one can hear
Stinky clown! Why are you stuck on my head ?
Why are you living in my dreams ?
I'm getting worse and you don't know
I want to stop this pain i'm on a war
Either i'm gonna' win or i'm gonna die
I'm sick of searching light deep in dark roads
Stinky clown! Why are you stuck on my head ?
Lost myself again i really feel unsafe
I know that feeling, it tried to steal once my life
I cant believe i'm standing here at all
I can't believe i'm still holding on
My world is dark and filled with demons
It's the end i'm going home alone
I'm stopping all this pain
All this struggles with Schizophrenia.
I see it there Heaven yes i'm watching it
I'm ready to rise again i'm ready to get released
War ended and i lost, the clown wins
It means i'm gonna die so,
I'm closing my eyes forever.

Lost
between sky , earth , heaven
Searching home, that sweet place never had
Demons took away my thoughts
Becoming alone , reaching nothing
Crossing the river with no bridge
Living aimlessly , with devil mind
Mind blow , mind killer
Spinning in his grip , wretched
Forlorn , helpless , powerless
That voice of Deuce in my ears
Still hearing it in my dreams, when i'm awake
It's killing me softly , lightly , slightly
Maybe i'm insane , it's just my imagination due to lack of sleep
but i know demons trying to control me
till i became killer , cold pro killer
Killing unheartly, no reason but revenge
Smooth Body , Cold mind
Foresight to the untold & hidden future
Keeps saying " La revencha" " La venganza"
"Rematch" "Revenge" Spanish Expressing
Real dark, deep dark , night comes up
he gets up at midnight and sleep when the sun rise
Showing himself immortal , eternal

Where am i ?
                 What i'm doing here ?
I'm looking through my shadow
                 But what do i see ?
Black soul , maniac thoughts
                 How am i still living ?
I'm "almost" destroyed mentally
                  Physically strong as rock
Why can't i control myself ?
                  I'm so insecure , immature
I'm having Schizophrenia
                  Dementia praecox
Fundamental derangement of my mind
                  Probably caused by an emotional disorder
Emotional illness affecting in my personality
                  I'm Neurosis , Neurasthenic
Nerve dysfunction  


                 I'm walking away
To forget all this pain
                 To walk and never get back
Part of my body already dead
                 I don't know if i'm going to survive
From this midlife crisis
                This is nothing that elapsed
I'm sure it's just the beginning of hell
                 Half spent
Not much left
                 That's how it used to be
That's how it going to be
                Struggling with desease
Smiling is hard but easy
                As much as slutty
Psychotic confession
                Irritability

Demons
Kind of devels
Ghosts of hell
Controling the bell
Drugged, undercover
the soul of whisperers
Black angel with dark blue
Real astonish eyes

Sun rises , he's gone
Sun goes , he's here
Timeless
Searching special blood
From people slained rudely
That's his awful way
To show emotions
The glory of respect

I always try to be perfect
But why searching perfection ?
If it's not allowed for anyone
I'm lost with pain
Suffering with distinction
In my family
Whatever i do, whatever i try
I'm always not good
I used to have hope in life
But now i have hope in death
I'm certainly not abused physically
But abused mentally
Always trying to forget
But never being able to
If suicide wasn't for cowards
You wouldn't see me here now
Struggling with today
To live a better tomorrow
It's true i'm lonely
It's true no one have my back
It's true no one cares about me
But i'll always keep smiling
Because it's the only thing that i got

I'm not strong enough to continue living
My life is getting down down and down
I don't know anything called anymore smiling
My mind is just going round and round

I need backup if I want to stay alive
I need power if i want to smile
I wish if i can be just cold
I wish if i had the bold

People live their lives as there is no tomorrow
They have fun,they forget them sorrows
But why my destiny is to live with pain
My medicine is smoking, having drugs and*******

Oh God, give me the power
To stand up from this hollow
I'm not ready to be buried
Help me, give me your hand

I shall give thee my love
Prithee with no deceit
I know not. Know you?
A glance of the eye
To ponder in woodness
Tis  not keak nor whiteliver
A sky with wooly clouds
Methought you are theow
I shall bethink myself
Good morrow my lady!
My heart sings to see thee
Shy love, methinks of thou
O come hither, my life's delight!
Fie ! Fie on you !
To make me melt in thou words
Forsooth tis me, your prey
Nay my lady! tis me.
O my love's like a red rose.
I bid you to be ruled by me
I want to guard your honor
I pray to see thee with me
Aye my lord! Thou are mine
And I shall be thine.
You are the true sapphire
your fair sweet face
Make me cherish all that is good.
I want to stay faithful
I could never constrain myself
from loving and praising you.
Mine eyes have drawn thy shape
Which, like a jewel hung in ghastly night.
Peace in thy breast!
So sweet to rest!
Alas! Thus If I am to die    
Shh-- My love we shall die together
For I could not imagine
The pain I shall have to bear.  
Tis thou whom I love and desire
  For you, my sweet companion
      I have thus given my heart.